Proxy for God

The school where I studied didn’t have the option of Class XI and XII. So the examination of Class X, was my school final examination. After that it was straight to college. This transition involves quite a bit of adjustment as also results in increment of knowledge not only in the academic context but also in terms of vocabulary, synonymous with terms and terminologies associated with college life.
The first addition to my vocabulary was the word, “proxy”. I was quite conversant with its synonyms, but I realized, that though it meant substitute, alternative etc., there was no substitute for “proxy” in the college campus. In other words there could be no proxy for proxy! Needless to say how I came to know of the word. Everybody knows that when a student intends to skip a class he/she asks friends to give proxy during the “roll call”. Consequences thereof are not the issue here. The ethos involved is.
In a society, which is either God abiding or God fearing, elders instill in the kids the faith that there is a Superpower called God. He is responsible for our well being and nothing escapes His notice. He is responsible for life on this earth. We either reap the dividends of our good deeds in the form of His blessings manifested in the success in all spheres of life, peace, happiness and perfect health. Or we pay the price of evil deeds in the form of negative happenings around us, involving us; resulting in failures, stress, sorrow and ill health. God never curses His child, that is what we all are, but presents to us the “result” of our performance on this earth. All these I too was told and I myself believe in them as well.
My belief in God extends to an extent where I feel that anything and everything happens with His permission. But this belief has a paradoxical effect. It forces me to think that if God is our Creator and it is His prerogative to end our life, then who are the persons everyday killing innocent people indiscriminately? Homicide is a crime to the extent of the self-inflicted one, suicide, too considered to be so.
What do these people want to prove? Whom they are fighting actually?
To me, they have taken the fight directly to God. In doing what they do, they trespass into God’s territory. They want to instill fear in us that our life is in their hands. Though they are not our Creators, but they want to don the mantle of our Terminators.
So do they want to be the “Proxy for God”?
But just as there can’t be any proxy for proxy in college campus, so is for God. Had it been otherwise, whole mankind would have ceased to exist given the escalating number of such evil forces.
They are heinous “Criminals” who can never be the “Proxy for God”.
Sushmita Mukherjee,
11th May 2009